Title: Most of all.

These few days, I just can't seem to find back that passion that I used to have for computers, which, maybe a good thing, or a bad?

I don't know man.

It's not as if by not using computer I would actually sit my arse down and do work, as if. As if.

Anyway, so much things have happened, I don't know what to say. Regarding life, church, God, friends, & discipline. Honestly, I'm thoroughly drained, and well, I pretty much expected it. Consecutive nights haven't been sleeping, out at parties, or just hanging out, walking arnd. (Omg, I just can't help but express my elation about that Zouk guy, he's drop-it-like-it's-hot!) & three cheers to the bartender, try harder doofus. (smugs)

I had a great time bonding with mom, altho it started out with a quarrel. I just don't get it why, but perhaps, perhaps. But whatever the case, the best part always comes later. Mango sale, oh-so-gooooood. Groceries shopping, and mom keeps gng into Louis Vuitton which makes me wanna get one too. With them flashing their LV stuff in front of me, sooner or later I'd be asking for one, sigh.

And to think that I used to find those LV, Gucci, Chanel stuff boring, with the same old fashioned print, which exudes almost no originality and I always find no reason why people can actually love it so much. But ugh, I guess we should never say things, too early.

Friday night, met up with Feng Yuan, to catch up on life, or so to speak. Watch Zohan. And it's like those kinda shows where you'll laugh, but come out of the cinema, completely blanked out, and when you try recalling the plot, you'll be thinking really hard, killing quite a handful of cells in the process. Oh! And when they asked for my Ez Link card, I felt the little thrill. Okay, cheap thrill. But yknw it's like, dude take that, I'm 16, poo.

But macaroni man, I was soooooo late for church. All due to miscommunications, agh. But! I still managed to get my arse in church, altho I have tonnes of hmwrk, but I figured out if I could actually spend my time shopping or catching up with friends, why not spending some time with God, He'll make a way anyway! So we had a back-to-school bash! Agh, I missed History and F&N lessons! Dang it.

Had some interesting games, at PE, Math, Art. Like, totally, ghey. But whenever you go back to church, regardless of how long you haven't been back there, you always get this closeness, warm fuzzy feeling in your heart. Like little fluttering feathers warming you up right from inside out.

I haven't been really faithful in Christ although this year should be a milestone, a great leap in my faith. But apparently, that doesn't seem the case. Sec 2 was the most faithful years of mine, Sec 3 was kinda, tumbling down, and end of Sec 3 was like, ugh. Sec 4, it's kinda like on and off, and I'm really, really, remorseful. Countless times I've promised myself and God that I will go back, back to the beginning, but always, I tend to procrastinate. How long does it take for me to actually realise that I need to get a reality check, geez.

But anyway, yeh, you still get this warm fuzzy feeling back there, even though you haven't been going back. Church never shuns you, they welcome you, with everything. And I'm glad we could all still stick around like usual. It's amazing how time flies, and we're actually where we are now. But I still miss camps, the last camp was eons years ago, so end-of-year camp! I'm looking frward! I miss those times where Pie and I would work into the wee hours in the corner of the church, and give them the stare to whoever who dares to touch our work. I miss those times where we'll go nuts inside the sleeping bag. I miss times I spend with the other 3.

I really don't know how I would survive or initiate anything in church without these 3 wonderful friends.

Although we don't talk or meet up often, only on Sundays, but it's adequate to keep us going. We've seen each other grown up tgt, and made plans about our future tgt. 3 years ltr! Hong Konggggg. I'm sure it'll be a blasting good timeeeee! We're built to last. Hahaha, corny.

Monday, back-to-school. Oh holy moley.

I'm sooooo dead tired these few days in school, really lethargic. I wonder if it's my sleeping habits or whatsoever. But gosh, it's taking it's toll on me, big time. And I'm so not enjoying it okay, geez. I practically wanna sleep in every single lessons. Drama please, get my awake.

You always link girls to gossips. Which, apparently is how the way girls function. But, I'm starting to be so tired, & lethargic. 3 more mnths, just 3 more mnths. AHHHHHH, I HAVE NO IDEA ON HOW TO ACTUALLY FEEL. That sounds so weird, but yeh, I have no idea what I'm feeling, what I should feel, what should it be.

But whatever. I just feel like wrangling someone's neck. Hah.

P/S: I can't believe it, Portugal lost. Okay whatever, I want Germany to win, but Cristiano Ronaldo means more. Sigh.
PP/S: I wanted to nap at 10 PM and wake up at 245 AM to watch Germany's match against Turkey, but failed. I woke up, but too lazy to budge. Sigh.
PPP/S: Thank God Germany won, phew. Or else I would have slain myself for not waking up.
PPPP/S: Campus Live tmrw, dental tmrw, movie with Joe tmrw. And dance lessons have been very faithful these few weeks, I LURB IT.
PPPPP/S: I need to wake up for Spain & Russia's match tnight.


"Get dancing!"

xoxo
june

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