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i honestly feel like crap, everything is going fucking wrong man. argh, but still, on the outside, i seem so fine. always, why must i contain myself like that.

okay nvm, at lst i know where my real warmth lies! it lies within you my dear bestfriend! and also church friends! and not forgetting my beloved primary school friends! hahaha! like, yah baby. we're going out on wed! like, finally the four of us are united together as one bond, the gang! like, yeah! hahaha, my dear girls! we better bargain, budget, die die must get below 15 okay! hahaha! yeah.

today, went for church, had some really high talk with my, erh, 3 good friends. like seriously damned good friends, i swear i spoil that damned friendship, i can go kill myself, like right there on the spot! hahaha! like, yah! and then we like planned super alot of things for the future! but there's this upcoming one! wednesday is the big day my dear girls! hahaha! yeah! then erh, we got super high, like highly confidential stuff! hahaha. then had lunch with one of em, like we shared food and felt super full, we're like damned retarded luh my dear girl! hahaha, i realise in school we're hi-bye friend, but in church we're so much better! hahaha! that's something cool mannnn! hahaha, then went to church and slacked, like hey i found my master, eugene and chermaine darhling! they're gna like teach me guitar, finally. hahaha! then, went borders while sel went for tuition, and eugene told me about hero(dude, it's rather interesting luh actually!) hahaha! then i bought angels and demons(hoping to improve my damned, confined, use of vocab!) while he, sudoku. hahaha! had some rather, erh, interesting i may brand it, talk. okay, rather fun and i love everyone, seriously, honestly, and this feeling is really great, and aye my dear girl! mission impossible this tuesday! hahaha!

my parents just said that im someone with loads of problem, what the hell! okay, fine they're joking, like hell not encouraging at all luh! argh! okay, i swear im gna go out with bestfriend someday and take a damned neoprint with him! i miss him luh! like, bestest friend on earthhhh! :D